すみません！(excuse me!)

HELLOOOO!
Sorry I haven't posted in like forever! I have changed host families and currently at my new host family's house I can not access internet for the time being. If you have something really important you need to tell me, contact me through email. I can check my email at school but I can not access my blogs or myspace or facebook. : ( Currently, I am at my first host family's host for the weekend and have been kind enough to let me borrow their internet. Hopefully, I will have the time to add some new pictures to my flickr. ; )
I have been extremely busy lately! Like I said earlier I have changed host families. I currently live with two boys and their mother. Their parents are divorced and currently their dad lives in Fukuoka. That also means my address has changed! If you want to send me something please ask my mother for my new address or ask me through an email! So my new host family is definitely a big change. Before I used to live with two girls and their mother and father. Nevertheless, I have been getting along fine with my new host family and they are "usually" very kind to me. haha. I call my older host brother, technically I am older than him, hanakuso which literally means booger. haha He is really into guitar, which I find amazing because I have been wanting to learn how to play and sometime he is nice and teaches me. The younger brother which is thirteen is really starting to warm up to me. He tries to make conversation even though my Japanese is bad and his English is worse. The mother is a little okashii (silly) and so is her sister, which makes her Yuuki(my older host brother) and Totan(his real name is shoken)'s aunt. Yuminechan(the aunt) has two daughter's, one(Aoi) is a ninensei(second year student) who is super cute and her boyfriend is super chill, hopefully I have time to make a blog about him later this weekend. The other daughter(I can't remember he name now) is going to college and is leaving for Canada later in October.
I have also recently gone to another festival. I can not remember the name of it right now but in English it is called the "Drunken Horse Festival". Teams of people dance in the streets and parade horses around. It is very exciting and even Victoria was able to join because her host sister was part of one of the teams. I have videos and many pictures that I hope to upload very soon.
So this is what I have been up to lately. I will probably post another blog this weekend.
Sincerely,
Clarissa

ps-Check my flickr for more pictures soon. Particularly the Hinokuni Masturi photos and Drunken Horse pictures. Also in early October KumamotoJo(Castle) is having a festival and I am definitely going to that.
pps- Sorry for the lack of updates and such. Hopefully this weekend will make up for it all!
ppps- Sorry for bad grammar I wrote this very quickly and didn't proofread. : (

i just gave myself the shivers.

1. Exercise more.
2. Run for Cross Country.
3. Make at least 10 new friends.
4. Discover at least 15 more bands.
5. Read at least 20 books not required by my school.
6. Do an art project. More specifically a painting that I can keep for a long time.
7. Face my fears

1. at a halt.
2. incomplete. not until next year. :(
3. i have made my 10 friends. COMPLETE!
4. you, me, and everyone we know, playradioplay!, all time low, metro station, we the kings, the cab, four years strong
5. incomplete
6. incomplete
7. incomplete

with empty stomaches, and hungry eyes; our only choice was to swallow pride

remember when you told me sleep was overrated.
insomnia was the next best thing.
what happened?
where's the trend?
where'd the one liner yo always used go?
"everyone's doing it."

is is because when you dream your mind is haunted with memories of her?
i will never be in your shoes.
but i am scared too.
but we can only run for so long.
we are both out of breath, so just give in.
this is the only day when it will be okay.

you can't buy happiness but the bottle.
booze, sleeping pills, whatever.
they only work for a while before they eat you inside out.

what am i talking about anyway? idk.

before i remember...

everything i do is for all the wrong reasons.
sometimes i need to take my own advice.
get over it.
get over it.
get over it.
i am not any different from you if i keep going on like this.
i just need to say it.
breathe.
breathe.
breathe.
is this everthing you hoped for?
is this everything you dreamed?
i hope it is.

Update

Anyone who reads this I have another blogspot I will also use.
You can find it at alltheworldiswaiting.blogspot.com.
It is sorta my side project.
But yes I will continue to post here. :)
This is more of my writings but there is more of a diary.

We laugh. We scream. We sing.

1. Exercise more.
2. Run for Cross Country.
3. Make at least 10 new friends.
4. Discover at least 15 more bands.
5. Read at least 20 books not required by my school.
6. Do an art project. More specifically a painting that I can keep for a long time.
7. Face my fears

1. sort of
2. incomplete. not until next year. :(
3. i have made 6 new friends.
4. oh, hush!, envy on the coast, thee armada
5. incomplete
6. incomplete
7. getting there

As for that...

1. Exercise more.
2. Run for Cross Country.
3. Make at least 10 new friends.
4. Discover at least 15 more bands.
5. Read at least 20 books not required by my school.
6. Do an art project. More specifically a painting that I can keep for a long time.
7. Face my fears.

1. incomplete.
2. incomplete.
3. i have made a total of 3 new friends, so far.
4. sing it loud, the elation, white tie affair
5. incomplete.
6. incomplete.
7. i have faced one.

Sing this Sorrow

Why so cynical?
I am not a cynic.
I am not a critic.
I am a realist.
I see a lot a bad in this world,
yet some of us dare to call ourselves perfect.
Maybe everyone is perfect.
Imperfection is perfection.
"All of us are in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars."
Is it not true?
Prove me wrong, I dare you.